"Friends, How Many of Us Have Them?"

The title is probably less than 1/3 of what this post is really about. But I can't help but think of this song, by Whodini, at a time like this.  What's going on with my beloved, self-proclaimed, 'ultimate Gemini'? For those who don't know, I am speaking of Kanye West.  Realistically, I'm sure I have enough clues to be able to answer that question, but still.  

Out of all of my friends, I am certain I am the biggest Kanye West fan.  I admit, I was late to join the bandwagon, and when I mean late, I mean around the time "Graduation" dropped, but anywho...I joined full force.  I bought the albums and supported him, even on his rants, because, for the most part, I agreed.  But now, he's on another level.  I don't know Kanye West personally, but as a fan who's followed him, it is clear to me that the decline began once his mother passed.  I seriously wonder if he ever really dealt with that.  When I say dealt with that, I mean sought counseling.  I've yet to lose a parent, but I could only imagine the deep pain that would surface in that event.  It was in that moment that I think Kanye West lost his real true friend.

He said it himself in a verse from Jeezy's, "Put On"... "the top so lonely".  I can't imagine going through life without someone being here to check me when I get out of control.  It's actually really sad.  He is acting out like a child who has been hurt. And the pain is obvious.  I think one of the biggest things for me is the fact that his own wife hasn't checked him.  Am I surprised? No. No one should be.  He married a Kardashian.  Everything they do is calculated.  I really wonder how much of a friend she is to him...but that's neither here nor there.  As much as I also love Jay-Z, I am a bit disappointed that he hasn't checked him either.  Jay-Z is a business guru!  Maybe they aren't the best of buds, but he's his mentor, at least to some extent.  Why won't he reach out to him?  We'll never know and really it's none of our business, but when you put your business out there, curious minds like mine are interested in knowing.  Now, this, in no way, shape, or form, takes away from his talent.  That cannot be denied.  He is on genius level when it comes to his craft, but I still feel sad for him.

Yes, Kanye is a Gemini, so am I, and people like to call us crazy, bipolar, wishy-washy, etc. and some of that may be the case at times; however, I think this goes way beyond the surface.  It was only a few years ago where he was upset because Beyonce' didn't win, now he's complaining because she did.  It was years ago that he was ranting about George Bush not liking black people, now he's a Trump supporter.  I can't even keep up myself anymore.  I say all this to say, we will never really know what Kanye truly feels because he throws a tantrum when he doesn't get his way. At the end of the day all money is green and he's going to position himself to where he's at the center of it.  I went to the "Life of Pablo" concert in Atlanta, Georgia and it was amazing (this isn't the type of market to pull stunts, like he did in Cali, on).  But one thing that was obvious about the Atlanta show is that there were just as many, if not more, white people at that concert compared to black ones. You can piece that together how you want. 

In closing, I just want to say love and cherish your friends.  Be that person who isn't afraid to tell them when they've gone off the deep end.  Tell them the truth and support them the whole way through.  I have no where near as much money as these celebrities, but I can only pray that if I ever get it, my friends won't sit there and watch me fall apart, publicly, at that.  Not many of us get to live out our dreams and if we ever get the chance, we should be held up by our loved ones who we can trust to be there through the good, bad, and the ugly.